Reflection
23th Dec.-29th Dec.
I'd like to change the format of the Witness in this term in stead of the date pattern,for the bald task and the chaos occured in my brain domained my life this very week.I had thought scores of things,however,most of which are needed awareness only by myself.I would sum up some of them and have no willing to elaborate anyone in detail.And to stimulate the reading rate,I'd like to introduce a new principle:I would keep some sensitive contents of Witness only in English,and the Chinese version would be simplified by the main news every week.In addition,I was under serious consideration of establishment of a English blog in American website,which will be more effective by English-speaking readers.International strategy?in some extent.I wish blog will be model of the Eterprise operation.
First of all,I should exhibit the dedication for driving license.The plan was implemented soothly and the rate of progress was fairly high----I have covered half of the course requirement.The coaches were chosen by me and most of them gave comments that my driving was bold even dangerous,which should be attributed to,I think,the unpleasure in recent days.After the business of final essay,I will continue my courses and fight for the license before 20Jan.
Secondly,someone was cared desperately,even though I would not act for extra steps any more.The messages were the best reward for my concern,which I admit that the one didn't realize at all. I didn't know in what extent I was addicted into the very person,but I am sure where was the base line.
Back to campus again for the final essay and the course essay.I lost my last class in university life.
Was contemplating several days at home.In deep fickleness and depression.Discovered some demerits which I omited or have never conscious of,which was fatal to my success and I couldn't correct them in short term.What's worse,I even don't know how to optimize myself at these angles.For instant,I was in low spirit with my career and future.How could I stimulate myself as before?
The X'mas festival was an common day for all of my friends,as bored as mine.I sent the birthday blessing to Liang Yanlan,who secretly loved me for over 5 years,and the feedback satisfied me for quite a while.The birthday blessing was the only strenth of my words.
Carried out copy of the short message again.the sources were quite concentrating,which perfectly described my privilege of concern.That's my Achilis's heel.Therefore,the notbook should be the highest confidential file,even more than my poetry anthology.
Discovered a significant event which had been neglected for merely one month:I had covered my 300 poems after the poem "Standing",which also means the poetry anthology "Zi Shi Ku Shang" had ended up with its 3 years old.It recorded the life,sentiment and thought during the 3 years,recorded most of people who were ever playing vital roles in my life,recorded my best friends' concern to me,recorded the secrets melted in the pieces of poems.The postscript was arranged in schedule,which might be completed in recent days.The blog's name would not be changed since brand had been planted in the active visitors' hearts,I am pleasing to operate the blog as a brand,like the avenue of PR department.The new poetry anthology is actively sought,so is the new name.I would post the determination here as soon as I make decision.
Get down to management my assessment.Begin with stock-type fund.
Vincent
12.29.2006
12.22.2006
Witness(06-12-22)
Reflection
16th Dec.
Watched some chapters of "Apprentice",a programme prevailing for several years in America,made me full of energy.Still,I couldn't help to keep my slow pace.
Read books as well and didn't mind the interview next day any more.CMBC plays no role in my heart.I'll meet Ge after the interview.
17th Dec.
The interview of CMBC was one of the most annoyments I've ever taken part in.I got there at 10:30,and the candidates which should arrive at 9:00 were still waiting for the interviewers.At noon,the first group of candidates started to get into the meeting room.I was distributed in the last group.I hate the company lack of efficiency.I stood up and talked to the staff that I had to go back to campus since my supervisor was about to discuss the final essay,and I elaborated the experience and knowledge in 3 sentences,then went off the building to meet Ge,who have been there waiting for me for over 2 hours.It's the firstime I appreciate my action so perfectly.
Ge said he hunted some companies and the momentum was not too bad.Went back to Alma Mater,and idled along the Chang'an Avenue,till Tian'an Men Square.Before then,I just told him I would come to Xi dan to take an interview and we didn't prepare anything,either phisically such as the songs we were acquainted,or spiritually such as the mourning of pastime.The hasty meet was ended in Tian'an Men Square,a strange place for us two.
18th Dec.
CMBC really called me again and told me that I had passed the first interview,which I didn't participate in,and they asked me if I had time to take another interview.I am not interested in this position any more,and the way they dealed with the candidates enangered me.I decided to give up the opportunity,even though I could got enough respect as well as jealous from crowd,while Zhong Jing Cheng was this guy one year ago.
PR tong's birthday.Rachel,Nancy and Pan Xiao lin were absent,which made me indignant,even though I didn't tell anyone.Especially Rachel,didn't tell me in advance,so as she didn't at last.Nancy was suffered by stomache,and told me her absence 5 minutes before we would depart from campus.I also had business,which the driving school asked me to reserve cars on the right day.I left it apart.That must be the sign of the extense of the awareness to PR tong as well as particular ones.I was depressed.
Nevertheless,we enjoyed the time in KTV,and sang "sister" for Judy first time.We took massive pictures and made weird poses.I will call for it from Angela,and then I shall send them to you all.At midnight,Ye Zi sent a message to me said that the regathering was roughly limited after one regathering.And she said I was the centre of the PR tong,which might be seperate after our departure.I asked myself if PR tong just a dream for me and all that I am concern was dummy.I had no interest to chase the answer.
Slept at 12 o'clock.I was too tierd to be faced these poeple.
19th Dec.
Waked at 7:30,but didn't get up.Didn't response anyone's call.Didn't reply anyone's message.
Went to the classroom,taking the poem album again.
Angela told her direct leader that she would be absent for 2 months.
Jacob would go for work tomorrow,even though he was not content for he didn't prove himself,he thought.
Jack received the interview letter from LV,I didn't.
I still get up at noon and read the books had no use in my life.
20th Dec.
Dinner with Nancy and Rachel.
incline to be insane.
21th Dec.
Master Cheng intended to kill me,he said.He couldn't bear any more pressure from his sickness and the postgraduate exam.He wanted to transfer his rage to others,who was obliged be condemned in his mind,ie.Jack,and me.He said he had asked for the price of knife,and was in consideration the approach killing me.He was conscious that he was insane,but he imposed to release anything by this unreasonable way.I tried to consoled him that he was desparate since he was suffered by the harsh disease but not anyone else,as well as himself.He disentangled after my explanation.I am conscious that his disengagement will expire someday,and I held the domitory meeting at 10.I intended to save Jack's life since he will be along in the coming 2 weeks.Master Cheng still accused Jack embarrassedly,and I had to deal with the fierce situation time to time.Even though the atmosphere was rough and weird,the result was much better than before.
Lunch with Ye Zi,and chatted on PR tong again.Met the freshmen of PR department,aware that have passed 3 years.My life left vogue trace providing me to memory.
Idled across the campus again company with Jacob.poured the fucking affairs in my heart,and told him that I would be industrious for parents and friends,after that I will executive my promise.The life didn't change after my death.
Tracy also baffled by a harsh problem.Looking at Jacob's anxiety,I 've no idea since we had to wait for the final result which had been known by everyone.
22th Dec.
Left after lunch.Sent messages to everyone who was concern by me,and asked them to take care themselves after my leaving.Was company with Tong Shan accidentally in the subway.
Reserved the cars after Getting home.And then,enjoyed the life in my room.I love my home,sincerely.
Yang Jie remitted 3000 yuan to me finally I hastened her three months.I would retaliate her in recent days.
16th Dec.
Watched some chapters of "Apprentice",a programme prevailing for several years in America,made me full of energy.Still,I couldn't help to keep my slow pace.
Read books as well and didn't mind the interview next day any more.CMBC plays no role in my heart.I'll meet Ge after the interview.
17th Dec.
The interview of CMBC was one of the most annoyments I've ever taken part in.I got there at 10:30,and the candidates which should arrive at 9:00 were still waiting for the interviewers.At noon,the first group of candidates started to get into the meeting room.I was distributed in the last group.I hate the company lack of efficiency.I stood up and talked to the staff that I had to go back to campus since my supervisor was about to discuss the final essay,and I elaborated the experience and knowledge in 3 sentences,then went off the building to meet Ge,who have been there waiting for me for over 2 hours.It's the firstime I appreciate my action so perfectly.
Ge said he hunted some companies and the momentum was not too bad.Went back to Alma Mater,and idled along the Chang'an Avenue,till Tian'an Men Square.Before then,I just told him I would come to Xi dan to take an interview and we didn't prepare anything,either phisically such as the songs we were acquainted,or spiritually such as the mourning of pastime.The hasty meet was ended in Tian'an Men Square,a strange place for us two.
18th Dec.
CMBC really called me again and told me that I had passed the first interview,which I didn't participate in,and they asked me if I had time to take another interview.I am not interested in this position any more,and the way they dealed with the candidates enangered me.I decided to give up the opportunity,even though I could got enough respect as well as jealous from crowd,while Zhong Jing Cheng was this guy one year ago.
PR tong's birthday.Rachel,Nancy and Pan Xiao lin were absent,which made me indignant,even though I didn't tell anyone.Especially Rachel,didn't tell me in advance,so as she didn't at last.Nancy was suffered by stomache,and told me her absence 5 minutes before we would depart from campus.I also had business,which the driving school asked me to reserve cars on the right day.I left it apart.That must be the sign of the extense of the awareness to PR tong as well as particular ones.I was depressed.
Nevertheless,we enjoyed the time in KTV,and sang "sister" for Judy first time.We took massive pictures and made weird poses.I will call for it from Angela,and then I shall send them to you all.At midnight,Ye Zi sent a message to me said that the regathering was roughly limited after one regathering.And she said I was the centre of the PR tong,which might be seperate after our departure.I asked myself if PR tong just a dream for me and all that I am concern was dummy.I had no interest to chase the answer.
Slept at 12 o'clock.I was too tierd to be faced these poeple.
19th Dec.
Waked at 7:30,but didn't get up.Didn't response anyone's call.Didn't reply anyone's message.
Went to the classroom,taking the poem album again.
Angela told her direct leader that she would be absent for 2 months.
Jacob would go for work tomorrow,even though he was not content for he didn't prove himself,he thought.
Jack received the interview letter from LV,I didn't.
I still get up at noon and read the books had no use in my life.
20th Dec.
Dinner with Nancy and Rachel.
incline to be insane.
21th Dec.
Master Cheng intended to kill me,he said.He couldn't bear any more pressure from his sickness and the postgraduate exam.He wanted to transfer his rage to others,who was obliged be condemned in his mind,ie.Jack,and me.He said he had asked for the price of knife,and was in consideration the approach killing me.He was conscious that he was insane,but he imposed to release anything by this unreasonable way.I tried to consoled him that he was desparate since he was suffered by the harsh disease but not anyone else,as well as himself.He disentangled after my explanation.I am conscious that his disengagement will expire someday,and I held the domitory meeting at 10.I intended to save Jack's life since he will be along in the coming 2 weeks.Master Cheng still accused Jack embarrassedly,and I had to deal with the fierce situation time to time.Even though the atmosphere was rough and weird,the result was much better than before.
Lunch with Ye Zi,and chatted on PR tong again.Met the freshmen of PR department,aware that have passed 3 years.My life left vogue trace providing me to memory.
Idled across the campus again company with Jacob.poured the fucking affairs in my heart,and told him that I would be industrious for parents and friends,after that I will executive my promise.The life didn't change after my death.
Tracy also baffled by a harsh problem.Looking at Jacob's anxiety,I 've no idea since we had to wait for the final result which had been known by everyone.
22th Dec.
Left after lunch.Sent messages to everyone who was concern by me,and asked them to take care themselves after my leaving.Was company with Tong Shan accidentally in the subway.
Reserved the cars after Getting home.And then,enjoyed the life in my room.I love my home,sincerely.
Yang Jie remitted 3000 yuan to me finally I hastened her three months.I would retaliate her in recent days.
12.15.2006
Witness(06-12-15)
Reflection
8th Dec.
Sought 22 people,who are also my best friends,sending messages to Ge,as the first gift for him to celebrate his birthday.He gave me a phone to thank for my devote.Then I told him the second gift was the article posted in my blog.He said that he was overwhelmed by my faith and couldn't help to weeping.He promised me that he would review all the memories and keep it fresh,since he has listened the song"Youth",which I mentioned in my article,for several times.Still there was another bad news for us that he had to prepare CET4 by himself instead of my takig place of.I insisted to meet again after the New Year,to assure him sufficient time for the damn English exam.
One more thing:Xue refused my request for she didn't consider we are friends and we didn't have any concern with each other.If it was not Ge's birthday,I would have been depressed by her.God bless me.
Rachel gave me a telephone and said they all missed me because of my 2 week's departure.The gift I made for Ge has another intention that I could get touch with the friends I had neglected for over 10 days.Campus,I will be back in two days.
9th Dec.
Nothing special.Gave Richard a call and discussed the regathering of PR tong.Zhi Yi didn't find out the proper skating rink,thus we had to go for KTV again.Started to read some pages of Investment Bank Theory.Was it a sign of perking up?
10th Dec.
Arrived at campus at pm 2:00.Jacob took the job of baggageman again.The dormitory was totally filled by the laugh of Richard and Jack.They were together time to time recently and it's said they had the trend of gay~~~~.Even though It was weird they companied with each other,the more hasty thing has been discovered,ie. Cheng Shu Yi's tough eyes.I went to the canteen with Jacob,Rachel and Nancy to discuss the affairs of research project,which was the main project in this year.Making everything arranged,I put my emphasis on the books again,since the atmosphere on campus was quite suitable for endeavor.I had to say I was dynamic as soon as I put my first step into the campus.Made the plan recently,and started to memorize vocabulary in the Banking field.Of course,Internet opened again to me,which exausted me till the sunrise had been coming,while I told Rachel that I intend to go for Chen Gang's course,which was the first time I would be at.I sent the mail to the staff of USYD for my one more exemption of Microeconomics.Foreigners,who were as bureaucratic as us,pushed the duties from one department to another.I hated the Australians,although I haven't been one member with them.
Xiao Fang always sent messages to me at 4 or 5 am,when only we two were awake.It seemed that she was also annoyed by some trouble.Why destiny was
so sorrow?
11th Dec.
Up at noon as usual.Read the Interpretation on the Core Business Terminology to carry out my plan.Went for dinner with the PR tong,which had been revived since I was back.Angela seems needn't to help me for my annoyment since I had gotten off from the hook.Read books with Rachel in the Chinese Building and analysed her data of postgraduate of Peking University,which was quite numerous and I had to dig in the major to seek for the relationship between them.I could remember everything in the chart,which seemed the degree was my goal Eventually.Gave her advice untill 1 am and she needed more consideration but not the infos.
The fog was quite dense that I didn't see the sight 5 metres away. I couldn't see anything regarding my future any more,which was the only thing jumped out from my mind in the fog.The campus hasn't been as charming as this time,nevertheless I didn't take the camera with me.How many times can I waste to record thought as wellas memory occoured here.
12th Dec.
Strong wind expelled the fog from the very night.Got into the condition of learning today.We four PRed Liu Da ke after his class for our project.The result was that We four was criticized for over one hour since Rachel's comments in Beijing Dialogue Forum irritated the chief leaders and hurted his dignity,neglecting the goal of application of cash support.
Master Cheng scolded Richard when he came to my dormitary to prepare the NCRE.I 've never seen him like this,with a horrible appearence and fearful voice,which astonished Richard and me.That was the first time of his picking a quarrel with Richard and Jack.I started to concern the safety of them two.
Had dinner and learnt at the 3# building 405 again with Richard till 10 o'clock.
Discussed the financial affairs with Li Kai for long time,then discovered the knowledge was not acceptable very well and the approach of the thinking in this field was quite different with mine.I sought for the reason why I had to dedicate in the major,and figured out that the only one was father's saying and I am obliged to bear the colossal pressure,I had to maintain my step and towards the success far away from me,even though I was exausted by the fucking major.
Xiao Meng forum highlighted my poem,which was not my favorite,onto the top again,since it met the funny prefrence of the administrater.I was disappointed that my mecca was reined by the authority,who controled all the forum by the public opinion.
Intended to get asleep a little bit earlier,and went to bed at 2:00,but fell into insomnia untill 6:00.
When I was waked by the fucking Master Cheng's deed,I discovered Xiao Fang was in insomnia as well.
Liang Shuang gave me a call in the afternoon,who I haven't gotten touch with for over 4 years since the misunderstanding occured.I swore that I would have no more relationship with my ex-best-friend,but Vincent Xue Gave me an opportunity to break my pledge.Thanks for my friends.I hoped he could forgive me the affair 4 years ago.I apologized sincerely to him.
13th Dec.
Was interrupted before 10 o'clock by Master Cheng,and researched the possibility of his metamorphic psychology analysis with Jack,and came to the conclusion that he owned a absolute inclination of Mr.Ma which was a threat for our life.The inhabitants near ours were also frightened by his weird behaviour.providing he got a failiure of the postgraduate exam to Peking University,we predicted he would kill someone in my dormitory.
Promised Zhi Yi,who fixed over 6times to go for dinner with me but never put it into prctice,to have dinner with him finally.talked over the affair of reunion of PR tong.Then Rachel told me to have dinner----that's why 5 times failiure----and I asked her to go to classroom for learning after dinner.But no one could guess that how it would be meaningful for me.
Rachel said she decided to give up postgraduate degree,since she was fighting by her disadvantage against others' merit,and she got down into preparation of hunting job.It reflected my point of view which was buried by myself:I am also shaked by my diffidence.The financial knowledge for me is a barrier and so does the methodology.I reminded my original goal,which has been confirmed since I was a freshman,was to be a planner and team leader of one project,and I betrayed myself unconsciously.Rachel said she disentangled after she said she made the decision.She had prepared to devote into what attacted her no matter how tough it would be.That's the things which disturbed me recently,although I once merely managed to forget it.EVA said:you can't escape.I decided to make my future in focus.I will hold the Marketing again and grab the knowledge of computer in advance,if I can I will pick up Business Infomation System.My position will be a marketing stretagic planner or analyzer of market in IT field,which perishing absorbes me.I will cover most of the knowledge of the IT skill and marketing to ensure my bright future.Hope no change anymore.
Wang Ao Ya has passed the 3rd round interview in Simence and there would be a particular car arranged for her to the company.Bai Yun,Xu Xian Gang and Tian Li have received the offer from 4 biggest accounting companies in the world,which badly astonished me.So that's because of either the blindness of the companies,or the blindness of us,who had been with them for merely 4 years and be more familiar with them.If I wasn't lazy at that time,would I grab the opportunity?
There are almost no one remember the day's meaning.I dated with Elazer the day two years before,which was also the day I split chums with Licky.Alone for too long time and leave alone the happiness several years ago,exept for the woe idling in the night.Therefore,I wrote the words above desperately.
Borrowed books with my son,and went to the little restaurant to recall the memory there.The "next time" will be the vacant check for us since we even don't know whether we have future.
14th Dec.
Waked up by Judy after I slept just only 3 hours since she was in deep sorrow.I didn't know what's up,and rushed out hastly.She quarrelled with Gary, the foreign teather of oral English,since he is unreasonable even ridiculous.The fucking old man said he would fail her and she griefed owing to the injustice towards her and couldn't help to crying.I spent the whole forenoon advising her some strange metrod untill she recovered from depression.
had hair cut after lunch,and snoozed sitting the chair.when I was waked up,discovered the hair style took the function of entertaining public.I was insane but had no use.asleep in rage till 5 o'clock.
Gathering with PR tong again.Xiao Fang said she would negotiate with Wang Bo last time.She has never left in advance before.Jacob saw her and Wang Bo walking in the path and called her but no reaction.I was afraid that she has dumped with Wang bo and sent a message to her.Her cellphone was turned off.At 3:00 am she sent the message to me and asked me:Even though destiny was annoying,we had to obay it,did,t we?The only word I could say was:we will let you alone,and all of us look forward your perking up.
Told everyone Master Cheng's history,his evil intention as well as the dangerous inclination,which frightened the little girls besides me.And PR tong's reunion has been arranged on next monday,KTV again.
Rachel was adviced by her boyfriend and mother to dedicate into postgraduate again and she was extremely shaked.I anaylized the intention of Teacher Cheng and Bei Fang,and told her I spported her way from the very beginnig.She seemed to release the pressure for my analysis and was back to calm again.
Nancy went for interview of CTS of Hongkong.She was confused by the choice and called for help from Rachel and me.We were back of internship while others seemed not.But I believed she would follow our suggestion,since our point of view was from herself.
Rachel said everyone would remind me at the very begining they was frustrated.I don't know whether that's a pressure for me,but I would keep my role in the only half of year left for us.
In deep woe again at night.No way to prove myself and my confidence merely flew away.
reminded the pictures of PR tong's birthday last year,which was the most fantastic party in my heart.Every picture demonstrated some smiles from every face.I wish everyone that whould be together next monday could review it again,You would find the former yourself one year before,as well as your comrade.
15th Dec.
With Richard for the whole evening in the classroom.played the songs and music,taking care of our own business.Tranquil and sevene,the extravagant life I even couldn't wish.
The bank gave me a phone when I was out of the bathroom and told me to go for interview on Sunday.A brilliant campany,although I don't care any more.
Agreed with other's saying that finding a piece of job could enjoy my life,and as aresult,I kept a slack hand.Now I changed my view.If justinding a so-so job,that's the betrayal to the dedication in last 16-year hardworking.Providing we could give a prosperity lasting 20 years to myself by 3 or 5 years,it's worthwhile to endeavor.Tough was decided by your attitude but not the character of you are playing.Our dedication was not the assurance to keep ourstatus of slave.The only thing we should cultivate should be the distribution of time,and the recognition of position.
8th Dec.
Sought 22 people,who are also my best friends,sending messages to Ge,as the first gift for him to celebrate his birthday.He gave me a phone to thank for my devote.Then I told him the second gift was the article posted in my blog.He said that he was overwhelmed by my faith and couldn't help to weeping.He promised me that he would review all the memories and keep it fresh,since he has listened the song"Youth",which I mentioned in my article,for several times.Still there was another bad news for us that he had to prepare CET4 by himself instead of my takig place of.I insisted to meet again after the New Year,to assure him sufficient time for the damn English exam.
One more thing:Xue refused my request for she didn't consider we are friends and we didn't have any concern with each other.If it was not Ge's birthday,I would have been depressed by her.God bless me.
Rachel gave me a telephone and said they all missed me because of my 2 week's departure.The gift I made for Ge has another intention that I could get touch with the friends I had neglected for over 10 days.Campus,I will be back in two days.
9th Dec.
Nothing special.Gave Richard a call and discussed the regathering of PR tong.Zhi Yi didn't find out the proper skating rink,thus we had to go for KTV again.Started to read some pages of Investment Bank Theory.Was it a sign of perking up?
10th Dec.
Arrived at campus at pm 2:00.Jacob took the job of baggageman again.The dormitory was totally filled by the laugh of Richard and Jack.They were together time to time recently and it's said they had the trend of gay~~~~.Even though It was weird they companied with each other,the more hasty thing has been discovered,ie. Cheng Shu Yi's tough eyes.I went to the canteen with Jacob,Rachel and Nancy to discuss the affairs of research project,which was the main project in this year.Making everything arranged,I put my emphasis on the books again,since the atmosphere on campus was quite suitable for endeavor.I had to say I was dynamic as soon as I put my first step into the campus.Made the plan recently,and started to memorize vocabulary in the Banking field.Of course,Internet opened again to me,which exausted me till the sunrise had been coming,while I told Rachel that I intend to go for Chen Gang's course,which was the first time I would be at.I sent the mail to the staff of USYD for my one more exemption of Microeconomics.Foreigners,who were as bureaucratic as us,pushed the duties from one department to another.I hated the Australians,although I haven't been one member with them.
Xiao Fang always sent messages to me at 4 or 5 am,when only we two were awake.It seemed that she was also annoyed by some trouble.Why destiny was
so sorrow?
11th Dec.
Up at noon as usual.Read the Interpretation on the Core Business Terminology to carry out my plan.Went for dinner with the PR tong,which had been revived since I was back.Angela seems needn't to help me for my annoyment since I had gotten off from the hook.Read books with Rachel in the Chinese Building and analysed her data of postgraduate of Peking University,which was quite numerous and I had to dig in the major to seek for the relationship between them.I could remember everything in the chart,which seemed the degree was my goal Eventually.Gave her advice untill 1 am and she needed more consideration but not the infos.
The fog was quite dense that I didn't see the sight 5 metres away. I couldn't see anything regarding my future any more,which was the only thing jumped out from my mind in the fog.The campus hasn't been as charming as this time,nevertheless I didn't take the camera with me.How many times can I waste to record thought as wellas memory occoured here.
12th Dec.
Strong wind expelled the fog from the very night.Got into the condition of learning today.We four PRed Liu Da ke after his class for our project.The result was that We four was criticized for over one hour since Rachel's comments in Beijing Dialogue Forum irritated the chief leaders and hurted his dignity,neglecting the goal of application of cash support.
Master Cheng scolded Richard when he came to my dormitary to prepare the NCRE.I 've never seen him like this,with a horrible appearence and fearful voice,which astonished Richard and me.That was the first time of his picking a quarrel with Richard and Jack.I started to concern the safety of them two.
Had dinner and learnt at the 3# building 405 again with Richard till 10 o'clock.
Discussed the financial affairs with Li Kai for long time,then discovered the knowledge was not acceptable very well and the approach of the thinking in this field was quite different with mine.I sought for the reason why I had to dedicate in the major,and figured out that the only one was father's saying and I am obliged to bear the colossal pressure,I had to maintain my step and towards the success far away from me,even though I was exausted by the fucking major.
Xiao Meng forum highlighted my poem,which was not my favorite,onto the top again,since it met the funny prefrence of the administrater.I was disappointed that my mecca was reined by the authority,who controled all the forum by the public opinion.
Intended to get asleep a little bit earlier,and went to bed at 2:00,but fell into insomnia untill 6:00.
When I was waked by the fucking Master Cheng's deed,I discovered Xiao Fang was in insomnia as well.
Liang Shuang gave me a call in the afternoon,who I haven't gotten touch with for over 4 years since the misunderstanding occured.I swore that I would have no more relationship with my ex-best-friend,but Vincent Xue Gave me an opportunity to break my pledge.Thanks for my friends.I hoped he could forgive me the affair 4 years ago.I apologized sincerely to him.
13th Dec.
Was interrupted before 10 o'clock by Master Cheng,and researched the possibility of his metamorphic psychology analysis with Jack,and came to the conclusion that he owned a absolute inclination of Mr.Ma which was a threat for our life.The inhabitants near ours were also frightened by his weird behaviour.providing he got a failiure of the postgraduate exam to Peking University,we predicted he would kill someone in my dormitory.
Promised Zhi Yi,who fixed over 6times to go for dinner with me but never put it into prctice,to have dinner with him finally.talked over the affair of reunion of PR tong.Then Rachel told me to have dinner----that's why 5 times failiure----and I asked her to go to classroom for learning after dinner.But no one could guess that how it would be meaningful for me.
Rachel said she decided to give up postgraduate degree,since she was fighting by her disadvantage against others' merit,and she got down into preparation of hunting job.It reflected my point of view which was buried by myself:I am also shaked by my diffidence.The financial knowledge for me is a barrier and so does the methodology.I reminded my original goal,which has been confirmed since I was a freshman,was to be a planner and team leader of one project,and I betrayed myself unconsciously.Rachel said she disentangled after she said she made the decision.She had prepared to devote into what attacted her no matter how tough it would be.That's the things which disturbed me recently,although I once merely managed to forget it.EVA said:you can't escape.I decided to make my future in focus.I will hold the Marketing again and grab the knowledge of computer in advance,if I can I will pick up Business Infomation System.My position will be a marketing stretagic planner or analyzer of market in IT field,which perishing absorbes me.I will cover most of the knowledge of the IT skill and marketing to ensure my bright future.Hope no change anymore.
Wang Ao Ya has passed the 3rd round interview in Simence and there would be a particular car arranged for her to the company.Bai Yun,Xu Xian Gang and Tian Li have received the offer from 4 biggest accounting companies in the world,which badly astonished me.So that's because of either the blindness of the companies,or the blindness of us,who had been with them for merely 4 years and be more familiar with them.If I wasn't lazy at that time,would I grab the opportunity?
There are almost no one remember the day's meaning.I dated with Elazer the day two years before,which was also the day I split chums with Licky.Alone for too long time and leave alone the happiness several years ago,exept for the woe idling in the night.Therefore,I wrote the words above desperately.
Borrowed books with my son,and went to the little restaurant to recall the memory there.The "next time" will be the vacant check for us since we even don't know whether we have future.
14th Dec.
Waked up by Judy after I slept just only 3 hours since she was in deep sorrow.I didn't know what's up,and rushed out hastly.She quarrelled with Gary, the foreign teather of oral English,since he is unreasonable even ridiculous.The fucking old man said he would fail her and she griefed owing to the injustice towards her and couldn't help to crying.I spent the whole forenoon advising her some strange metrod untill she recovered from depression.
had hair cut after lunch,and snoozed sitting the chair.when I was waked up,discovered the hair style took the function of entertaining public.I was insane but had no use.asleep in rage till 5 o'clock.
Gathering with PR tong again.Xiao Fang said she would negotiate with Wang Bo last time.She has never left in advance before.Jacob saw her and Wang Bo walking in the path and called her but no reaction.I was afraid that she has dumped with Wang bo and sent a message to her.Her cellphone was turned off.At 3:00 am she sent the message to me and asked me:Even though destiny was annoying,we had to obay it,did,t we?The only word I could say was:we will let you alone,and all of us look forward your perking up.
Told everyone Master Cheng's history,his evil intention as well as the dangerous inclination,which frightened the little girls besides me.And PR tong's reunion has been arranged on next monday,KTV again.
Rachel was adviced by her boyfriend and mother to dedicate into postgraduate again and she was extremely shaked.I anaylized the intention of Teacher Cheng and Bei Fang,and told her I spported her way from the very beginnig.She seemed to release the pressure for my analysis and was back to calm again.
Nancy went for interview of CTS of Hongkong.She was confused by the choice and called for help from Rachel and me.We were back of internship while others seemed not.But I believed she would follow our suggestion,since our point of view was from herself.
Rachel said everyone would remind me at the very begining they was frustrated.I don't know whether that's a pressure for me,but I would keep my role in the only half of year left for us.
In deep woe again at night.No way to prove myself and my confidence merely flew away.
reminded the pictures of PR tong's birthday last year,which was the most fantastic party in my heart.Every picture demonstrated some smiles from every face.I wish everyone that whould be together next monday could review it again,You would find the former yourself one year before,as well as your comrade.
15th Dec.
With Richard for the whole evening in the classroom.played the songs and music,taking care of our own business.Tranquil and sevene,the extravagant life I even couldn't wish.
The bank gave me a phone when I was out of the bathroom and told me to go for interview on Sunday.A brilliant campany,although I don't care any more.
Agreed with other's saying that finding a piece of job could enjoy my life,and as aresult,I kept a slack hand.Now I changed my view.If justinding a so-so job,that's the betrayal to the dedication in last 16-year hardworking.Providing we could give a prosperity lasting 20 years to myself by 3 or 5 years,it's worthwhile to endeavor.Tough was decided by your attitude but not the character of you are playing.Our dedication was not the assurance to keep ourstatus of slave.The only thing we should cultivate should be the distribution of time,and the recognition of position.
12.08.2006
Witness(06-12-8)
1.Reflection
2nd-3rd Dec.
This season is always too sorrow to keep life.The leaves have almost expired,so did I.My confidence has been peeled off.
Nothing special happened.Watched DVD,the cartoon "Conan" and "EVA",instead of any kinds of books.Went to bed at AM7:00 on time everyday,and up at pm 2:00,round and round.
Angela said she would go for internship in CITS.
Jacob took penned-interview in Xin Hua agency.If I could have cought the chance to deliever resume,would I be picked out?
Jack said he sold himself to a MICE company and will intern till the end of this semester,then they will negotiate for sallary.
How about me?I am just watching cartoon despondingly,while others are fighting for their destiny.However,what should I do.
4th Dec.
Started to play Winning Eleven,and slaughtered Real Madrid for 8 goals.That's a coincidence that I will play WE4 when I am disapointed and misoriented.So long as being in such low spirit,I am custommed to trumb the articles for pastime.
I believe that should be another time I am disapointed and misoriented,and I recognize that it is not the coincidence.
Decided to ponder the reason of silience.
Interview.Nestle's failure was a numerous shock for me.I was swamped by the inferiority even though I exerted myself to keep active after that.The narrow view made me lose the fragile confidence established by 3 years.Then comes to the interview of CITS where I was insulted at.Different from Nestle,I was not defeated by the interview itself but the prejudice.Nevertheless,I can't admit myself to live in the nasty surrounding.Angela said she has been depressed since the interview of Singapore Travel Bureau.She changed her mind that she got down to the companies giving her confidence and honour,but not the giant in their field.She said I need the honour and respect from others rarely obtained from the giant companies,according her understanding of me.I admitted that I was shaked by her says.
Overseas education.The world outside must be better than here?No friends,no relatives,pale life,pale future.taking one more piece of certificate is the only advantage.I have to be back,owing to the harsh policy.What a pathetic choice.The analysis for future,which I made a year ago and always been crew over to friends,said overseas education will be the last choice in the three,while I forgot the result when I made the decision.
Major.Do I have any right to make decision as all the roads are merely blind lane.Computer,Finance,English,Mathematics.4 majors but not 4 subjects,and every major is comprised by several courses.I intend to expire myself when I am in library.
People.Don't speak up anymore due to many people's concern,and the feeling was boosted by fury as well.However,there is no denying that is the key point of disappointment.The judgement in the heart will carry out if there is no sense of importance of myself.
Pastime.Two weeks ago's Reading former articles means another call-to-accout.Ge,Licky,Xue,PR tong,Angela,Jacob,high school,dorm.Merely stayed in the stuffiness when I turned over the articles which has never been trumbed for over a year.The interview with Licky in CITS has been proved that must be my doom.I can't recognized the I a few years ago.The I might look down upon me present.
I hate to be biased.I hate frustration.So I hate myself.
5th Dec.
Started to take "invstment banking" again,even though the pages I covered was quite limited.
Judy persuaded me to perk up again.I had to say,I am trying.
6th Dec.
Accomplished the 100 items for only 8 minutes in the highway code exam and got a full mark.But the anxiety before the exam hinted that I lost most of confidence.
Reading some pages signs the perk up?I don't know.
Send E-mail to the person who takes charge of the affair of US's enrolement,and requested him to exempt one more course,which can save merely 3000 Aus.$,equal to 18000RMB,even though it seems impposible.
Zhi Yi advised we could go for roller in Yue Tan to celebrate their birthdays as well as PR tong's.Did support since that's their first time to speak out their point of view.What's more,it is quite close to 35 elementary shool.
Richard faddled that "the world has not belonged to you" when I gave him a call.I realized that I located in an awkard position with solemnness.
Wrote the new article for Ge's birthday.Haven't written the proselike this for long time.
7th Dec.
Trimmed the article for Ge several times,since I was even not confident to my brilliance of writting.
Decided to be back on Sunday,if no emergency.
Enforced myself to translate all the reflection into English,to paractice the familarity of the active words.That's should be the beginning.
Father was back yesterday,and mother will go on errands today.She can't be back before my departure.
Was addicted by Beethoven's Missa solemnis Op.123,the only one that can take the place of Requiem, K 626 composed by mozart Wolfgang Amadeus.
8th Dec.
No more thing can be more significant than Ge's birthday.this day's refletion will record no more things except for this.
Happy birthday,my best friend.
2.Jacob send the message ended by "MVA".I asked him what it is with vain thought.I started insane after I knew the meaning of the 3 letters.It was created by Licky,and fullly filled in my cellphone 2 years ago.Deserted by doom is not horrible,but will be horrible enough if by pastime.
3.I am searching the one who hited my 5000th view,please told me if you are,or I will check your IP.
4.two weeks.The adjustment is not successful at all.Idleness needs any excuse?
5.Judy send back the message written by myself when I persuaded her.Humanbeing always keep reason when sermonrizing others.
6.Ge's birthday.That may be the last time to celebrate birthday for him.I will depart in the mid of July.Massive things will become the last time,even concluding some meet with someone in the last half of year.
7.I will be back.Have you ever missed me.
2nd-3rd Dec.
This season is always too sorrow to keep life.The leaves have almost expired,so did I.My confidence has been peeled off.
Nothing special happened.Watched DVD,the cartoon "Conan" and "EVA",instead of any kinds of books.Went to bed at AM7:00 on time everyday,and up at pm 2:00,round and round.
Angela said she would go for internship in CITS.
Jacob took penned-interview in Xin Hua agency.If I could have cought the chance to deliever resume,would I be picked out?
Jack said he sold himself to a MICE company and will intern till the end of this semester,then they will negotiate for sallary.
How about me?I am just watching cartoon despondingly,while others are fighting for their destiny.However,what should I do.
4th Dec.
Started to play Winning Eleven,and slaughtered Real Madrid for 8 goals.That's a coincidence that I will play WE4 when I am disapointed and misoriented.So long as being in such low spirit,I am custommed to trumb the articles for pastime.
I believe that should be another time I am disapointed and misoriented,and I recognize that it is not the coincidence.
Decided to ponder the reason of silience.
Interview.Nestle's failure was a numerous shock for me.I was swamped by the inferiority even though I exerted myself to keep active after that.The narrow view made me lose the fragile confidence established by 3 years.Then comes to the interview of CITS where I was insulted at.Different from Nestle,I was not defeated by the interview itself but the prejudice.Nevertheless,I can't admit myself to live in the nasty surrounding.Angela said she has been depressed since the interview of Singapore Travel Bureau.She changed her mind that she got down to the companies giving her confidence and honour,but not the giant in their field.She said I need the honour and respect from others rarely obtained from the giant companies,according her understanding of me.I admitted that I was shaked by her says.
Overseas education.The world outside must be better than here?No friends,no relatives,pale life,pale future.taking one more piece of certificate is the only advantage.I have to be back,owing to the harsh policy.What a pathetic choice.The analysis for future,which I made a year ago and always been crew over to friends,said overseas education will be the last choice in the three,while I forgot the result when I made the decision.
Major.Do I have any right to make decision as all the roads are merely blind lane.Computer,Finance,English,Mathematics.4 majors but not 4 subjects,and every major is comprised by several courses.I intend to expire myself when I am in library.
People.Don't speak up anymore due to many people's concern,and the feeling was boosted by fury as well.However,there is no denying that is the key point of disappointment.The judgement in the heart will carry out if there is no sense of importance of myself.
Pastime.Two weeks ago's Reading former articles means another call-to-accout.Ge,Licky,Xue,PR tong,Angela,Jacob,high school,dorm.Merely stayed in the stuffiness when I turned over the articles which has never been trumbed for over a year.The interview with Licky in CITS has been proved that must be my doom.I can't recognized the I a few years ago.The I might look down upon me present.
I hate to be biased.I hate frustration.So I hate myself.
5th Dec.
Started to take "invstment banking" again,even though the pages I covered was quite limited.
Judy persuaded me to perk up again.I had to say,I am trying.
6th Dec.
Accomplished the 100 items for only 8 minutes in the highway code exam and got a full mark.But the anxiety before the exam hinted that I lost most of confidence.
Reading some pages signs the perk up?I don't know.
Send E-mail to the person who takes charge of the affair of US's enrolement,and requested him to exempt one more course,which can save merely 3000 Aus.$,equal to 18000RMB,even though it seems impposible.
Zhi Yi advised we could go for roller in Yue Tan to celebrate their birthdays as well as PR tong's.Did support since that's their first time to speak out their point of view.What's more,it is quite close to 35 elementary shool.
Richard faddled that "the world has not belonged to you" when I gave him a call.I realized that I located in an awkard position with solemnness.
Wrote the new article for Ge's birthday.Haven't written the proselike this for long time.
7th Dec.
Trimmed the article for Ge several times,since I was even not confident to my brilliance of writting.
Decided to be back on Sunday,if no emergency.
Enforced myself to translate all the reflection into English,to paractice the familarity of the active words.That's should be the beginning.
Father was back yesterday,and mother will go on errands today.She can't be back before my departure.
Was addicted by Beethoven's Missa solemnis Op.123,the only one that can take the place of Requiem, K 626 composed by mozart Wolfgang Amadeus.
8th Dec.
No more thing can be more significant than Ge's birthday.this day's refletion will record no more things except for this.
Happy birthday,my best friend.
2.Jacob send the message ended by "MVA".I asked him what it is with vain thought.I started insane after I knew the meaning of the 3 letters.It was created by Licky,and fullly filled in my cellphone 2 years ago.Deserted by doom is not horrible,but will be horrible enough if by pastime.
3.I am searching the one who hited my 5000th view,please told me if you are,or I will check your IP.
4.two weeks.The adjustment is not successful at all.Idleness needs any excuse?
5.Judy send back the message written by myself when I persuaded her.Humanbeing always keep reason when sermonrizing others.
6.Ge's birthday.That may be the last time to celebrate birthday for him.I will depart in the mid of July.Massive things will become the last time,even concluding some meet with someone in the last half of year.
7.I will be back.Have you ever missed me.
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