Reflection
8th Dec.
Sought 22 people,who are also my best friends,sending messages to Ge,as the first gift for him to celebrate his birthday.He gave me a phone to thank for my devote.Then I told him the second gift was the article posted in my blog.He said that he was overwhelmed by my faith and couldn't help to weeping.He promised me that he would review all the memories and keep it fresh,since he has listened the song"Youth",which I mentioned in my article,for several times.Still there was another bad news for us that he had to prepare CET4 by himself instead of my takig place of.I insisted to meet again after the New Year,to assure him sufficient time for the damn English exam.
One more thing:Xue refused my request for she didn't consider we are friends and we didn't have any concern with each other.If it was not Ge's birthday,I would have been depressed by her.God bless me.
Rachel gave me a telephone and said they all missed me because of my 2 week's departure.The gift I made for Ge has another intention that I could get touch with the friends I had neglected for over 10 days.Campus,I will be back in two days.
9th Dec.
Nothing special.Gave Richard a call and discussed the regathering of PR tong.Zhi Yi didn't find out the proper skating rink,thus we had to go for KTV again.Started to read some pages of Investment Bank Theory.Was it a sign of perking up?
10th Dec.
Arrived at campus at pm 2:00.Jacob took the job of baggageman again.The dormitory was totally filled by the laugh of Richard and Jack.They were together time to time recently and it's said they had the trend of gay~~~~.Even though It was weird they companied with each other,the more hasty thing has been discovered,ie. Cheng Shu Yi's tough eyes.I went to the canteen with Jacob,Rachel and Nancy to discuss the affairs of research project,which was the main project in this year.Making everything arranged,I put my emphasis on the books again,since the atmosphere on campus was quite suitable for endeavor.I had to say I was dynamic as soon as I put my first step into the campus.Made the plan recently,and started to memorize vocabulary in the Banking field.Of course,Internet opened again to me,which exausted me till the sunrise had been coming,while I told Rachel that I intend to go for Chen Gang's course,which was the first time I would be at.I sent the mail to the staff of USYD for my one more exemption of Microeconomics.Foreigners,who were as bureaucratic as us,pushed the duties from one department to another.I hated the Australians,although I haven't been one member with them.
Xiao Fang always sent messages to me at 4 or 5 am,when only we two were awake.It seemed that she was also annoyed by some trouble.Why destiny was
so sorrow?
11th Dec.
Up at noon as usual.Read the Interpretation on the Core Business Terminology to carry out my plan.Went for dinner with the PR tong,which had been revived since I was back.Angela seems needn't to help me for my annoyment since I had gotten off from the hook.Read books with Rachel in the Chinese Building and analysed her data of postgraduate of Peking University,which was quite numerous and I had to dig in the major to seek for the relationship between them.I could remember everything in the chart,which seemed the degree was my goal Eventually.Gave her advice untill 1 am and she needed more consideration but not the infos.
The fog was quite dense that I didn't see the sight 5 metres away. I couldn't see anything regarding my future any more,which was the only thing jumped out from my mind in the fog.The campus hasn't been as charming as this time,nevertheless I didn't take the camera with me.How many times can I waste to record thought as wellas memory occoured here.
12th Dec.
Strong wind expelled the fog from the very night.Got into the condition of learning today.We four PRed Liu Da ke after his class for our project.The result was that We four was criticized for over one hour since Rachel's comments in Beijing Dialogue Forum irritated the chief leaders and hurted his dignity,neglecting the goal of application of cash support.
Master Cheng scolded Richard when he came to my dormitary to prepare the NCRE.I 've never seen him like this,with a horrible appearence and fearful voice,which astonished Richard and me.That was the first time of his picking a quarrel with Richard and Jack.I started to concern the safety of them two.
Had dinner and learnt at the 3# building 405 again with Richard till 10 o'clock.
Discussed the financial affairs with Li Kai for long time,then discovered the knowledge was not acceptable very well and the approach of the thinking in this field was quite different with mine.I sought for the reason why I had to dedicate in the major,and figured out that the only one was father's saying and I am obliged to bear the colossal pressure,I had to maintain my step and towards the success far away from me,even though I was exausted by the fucking major.
Xiao Meng forum highlighted my poem,which was not my favorite,onto the top again,since it met the funny prefrence of the administrater.I was disappointed that my mecca was reined by the authority,who controled all the forum by the public opinion.
Intended to get asleep a little bit earlier,and went to bed at 2:00,but fell into insomnia untill 6:00.
When I was waked by the fucking Master Cheng's deed,I discovered Xiao Fang was in insomnia as well.
Liang Shuang gave me a call in the afternoon,who I haven't gotten touch with for over 4 years since the misunderstanding occured.I swore that I would have no more relationship with my ex-best-friend,but Vincent Xue Gave me an opportunity to break my pledge.Thanks for my friends.I hoped he could forgive me the affair 4 years ago.I apologized sincerely to him.
13th Dec.
Was interrupted before 10 o'clock by Master Cheng,and researched the possibility of his metamorphic psychology analysis with Jack,and came to the conclusion that he owned a absolute inclination of Mr.Ma which was a threat for our life.The inhabitants near ours were also frightened by his weird behaviour.providing he got a failiure of the postgraduate exam to Peking University,we predicted he would kill someone in my dormitory.
Promised Zhi Yi,who fixed over 6times to go for dinner with me but never put it into prctice,to have dinner with him finally.talked over the affair of reunion of PR tong.Then Rachel told me to have dinner----that's why 5 times failiure----and I asked her to go to classroom for learning after dinner.But no one could guess that how it would be meaningful for me.
Rachel said she decided to give up postgraduate degree,since she was fighting by her disadvantage against others' merit,and she got down into preparation of hunting job.It reflected my point of view which was buried by myself:I am also shaked by my diffidence.The financial knowledge for me is a barrier and so does the methodology.I reminded my original goal,which has been confirmed since I was a freshman,was to be a planner and team leader of one project,and I betrayed myself unconsciously.Rachel said she disentangled after she said she made the decision.She had prepared to devote into what attacted her no matter how tough it would be.That's the things which disturbed me recently,although I once merely managed to forget it.EVA said:you can't escape.I decided to make my future in focus.I will hold the Marketing again and grab the knowledge of computer in advance,if I can I will pick up Business Infomation System.My position will be a marketing stretagic planner or analyzer of market in IT field,which perishing absorbes me.I will cover most of the knowledge of the IT skill and marketing to ensure my bright future.Hope no change anymore.
Wang Ao Ya has passed the 3rd round interview in Simence and there would be a particular car arranged for her to the company.Bai Yun,Xu Xian Gang and Tian Li have received the offer from 4 biggest accounting companies in the world,which badly astonished me.So that's because of either the blindness of the companies,or the blindness of us,who had been with them for merely 4 years and be more familiar with them.If I wasn't lazy at that time,would I grab the opportunity?
There are almost no one remember the day's meaning.I dated with Elazer the day two years before,which was also the day I split chums with Licky.Alone for too long time and leave alone the happiness several years ago,exept for the woe idling in the night.Therefore,I wrote the words above desperately.
Borrowed books with my son,and went to the little restaurant to recall the memory there.The "next time" will be the vacant check for us since we even don't know whether we have future.
14th Dec.
Waked up by Judy after I slept just only 3 hours since she was in deep sorrow.I didn't know what's up,and rushed out hastly.She quarrelled with Gary, the foreign teather of oral English,since he is unreasonable even ridiculous.The fucking old man said he would fail her and she griefed owing to the injustice towards her and couldn't help to crying.I spent the whole forenoon advising her some strange metrod untill she recovered from depression.
had hair cut after lunch,and snoozed sitting the chair.when I was waked up,discovered the hair style took the function of entertaining public.I was insane but had no use.asleep in rage till 5 o'clock.
Gathering with PR tong again.Xiao Fang said she would negotiate with Wang Bo last time.She has never left in advance before.Jacob saw her and Wang Bo walking in the path and called her but no reaction.I was afraid that she has dumped with Wang bo and sent a message to her.Her cellphone was turned off.At 3:00 am she sent the message to me and asked me:Even though destiny was annoying,we had to obay it,did,t we?The only word I could say was:we will let you alone,and all of us look forward your perking up.
Told everyone Master Cheng's history,his evil intention as well as the dangerous inclination,which frightened the little girls besides me.And PR tong's reunion has been arranged on next monday,KTV again.
Rachel was adviced by her boyfriend and mother to dedicate into postgraduate again and she was extremely shaked.I anaylized the intention of Teacher Cheng and Bei Fang,and told her I spported her way from the very beginnig.She seemed to release the pressure for my analysis and was back to calm again.
Nancy went for interview of CTS of Hongkong.She was confused by the choice and called for help from Rachel and me.We were back of internship while others seemed not.But I believed she would follow our suggestion,since our point of view was from herself.
Rachel said everyone would remind me at the very begining they was frustrated.I don't know whether that's a pressure for me,but I would keep my role in the only half of year left for us.
In deep woe again at night.No way to prove myself and my confidence merely flew away.
reminded the pictures of PR tong's birthday last year,which was the most fantastic party in my heart.Every picture demonstrated some smiles from every face.I wish everyone that whould be together next monday could review it again,You would find the former yourself one year before,as well as your comrade.
15th Dec.
With Richard for the whole evening in the classroom.played the songs and music,taking care of our own business.Tranquil and sevene,the extravagant life I even couldn't wish.
The bank gave me a phone when I was out of the bathroom and told me to go for interview on Sunday.A brilliant campany,although I don't care any more.
Agreed with other's saying that finding a piece of job could enjoy my life,and as aresult,I kept a slack hand.Now I changed my view.If justinding a so-so job,that's the betrayal to the dedication in last 16-year hardworking.Providing we could give a prosperity lasting 20 years to myself by 3 or 5 years,it's worthwhile to endeavor.Tough was decided by your attitude but not the character of you are playing.Our dedication was not the assurance to keep ourstatus of slave.The only thing we should cultivate should be the distribution of time,and the recognition of position.
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