1.reflection
Nov.20th
Became sicker.In bad condition for 3 days and no sign of recovery.Completed the fantastic book talking about the tale of Wall Street,then borrowed new books with a terrible shock by Finance.The requirement of maths is quite harsh,also for I viewed the English version.Nevertheless,the knowledge in the very field was a barrier to me.
I decided to exert into maths and computer simautaneously,since Li Kai told me I should have a superb command in the two subjects.Also,the basic knowledge of finance and English should not be neglected.The task seems a little bit oppressive for me to fulfill since I am obliged to prepare TEM8 and driving license at the same time.
Judy was addicted to "Prison Break" and stayed up late watching it till 5 o'clock,while I was watching EVA till 6:20.It appears that we are both insane by the ineffable pressure.
Lifted a call from the HR of NESTLE,to congraduate me passing the exam and prepare to go for interview next day.The anxiety didn't delight me any more.Started to try on the suit taken from home,and was scared after I dressed on the trousers:that was so fat that I can put one and a half fists.I had to borrow a suit from other dorms.However,my shape was too outstanding to dress on,the most skinny person's suit didn't fit me since I seemed like a peasant entering metropolitan first time.Finally,I conceded Auster's,albeit the trousers was too short to hide the socks.It was 24:00 after this process,and I must seek infos of NESTLE and its interview,till 3 o'clock.Made an incredible decision:Get up at 7:30 next morning,which means I only gained 4-hour-sleeping time and didn't account for the hours of floundering.
Nov.21st
Turely up at 7:30。Everyone seemed send their best wishes to me,even though they were originally looking foward to my lossbecause of jealousy.
Got down to preparation according to process of interview searched from Internet.The second step was highlighted as presentation.I copied down every topics demonstrated on net and prepared one by one.Discovered that several topics were repetitive in different versions,which gratified me that It means the possibility of Betting on the topic successfully was quite large.With the chuckle,I prepared 12 pieces of presentation in English,as the time I prepared IELT.
Printed and duplicated the certificates,took a shower,had lunch,dressed up the suit.Eating battercake in suit must be laughed at,so I made it right at dorm.Started off.Arrived at NESTLE(China) after 1 and a half hours.The classical style-building was full of emotional appeal.Everyone around there was well-dressed and foreigners there abounded even in the remote place.
40 minutes Ahead of schedule,Discovered that 4 candidates out of 10 had been there.Called them as "comrade",while recognized them as rivals,since NESTLE's interview consisted of 10 people,while the champion would be only one among them.Exept for my lower degree univrsity,others were all from high degree such as QsyingHua,Peking,DI,BIT and so on.Chosen by NESTLE,they must be the elites in their campus respectively.I had to compete with those people-------from then on,I was in dread unconsciously.
The interview started,group work and totally in English,while there would not be any rest time,even going restroom.
The first step was introduction for partner.My partner was a girl from BIT with the poorest oral English,while mine was moderate.Didn't nervous at all,and passed the first barrier with fluent sentences.
The second step must belong to me for my large-scale exertion on the presentation.Unfounately,the HR told us mildly:“We will come to next step:debate.”I was fainted at once,since I had no experience of debate and didn't know anything about the preparation of debate,while 7 people among the 9 was the member of their campus's debate team.The topic was “The decision should be made caculated rather than inspired.” and I was for the opinion.I intended to grasp the authority of our team at very beginning,while the girl was too agressive and I had to yield and keep gentlenss.She arranged everyone's order and keywords,but no one obeyed the regulation further in the debate.My performance was quite poor with lack of logic and confidence with my English expression.And in the free debate I also did a terrible job,since everyone was hyperactive to invade the counterparts and always 5 people standed up simultaneously as soon as possible and I couldn't react the very topic and it had been changed immediately.Summed up,I had 4 chances to present my point of view,and the total time limited is 20 minutes.During the conclusion,HR said:“You are not the first group,but the best one among all the groups till now.”I started to be aware that I came across a crowd of talants.Before than,the most active person was Angela;the people who commanded English best was Jack;and the people who was most organized-thinking was myself.But these 9 people,seemed to be leg to leg in every field with the 3 people at least.I started to concentrate on the procedure but not the outcome of the interview longer.
The third step was a game called "Sudoku",developed by a sweden,required superb logic thinking and competence.I considered whether I should practice this one week ago and didn't carry it out at last,regretting a lot when I saw the paper.Fotunately,I was well-trained in my logic-thinking and I believe I was brilliant enough,I figure out 80%,and if there would be 1 minute left,I would have figure all out.I discovered that some of them were rough by the game,I believed my performance was not bad.But the girl seating opposite me,who was from Peking Uni and had fulfilled all the game,astonished me badly.I discovered that the God is unfair,since the 5 girls were all quite pretty and top-qualified,taking a perfect command of English,even could they take the priority in the logic game,tell me why...
The fourth step was group discuss again.The topic was a story that a pilot's airplane crashed and he fell down into a forest.14 goods provided to be chosen taking with him required ranking according to priority.Gentlemen and ladies discussed respectively.I controled the leadership at this time and confirmed our principle as well as the value judgment.Our agreement process was quite fluent since we compromised each other well with rare ramification,and time was abundant to decide which one could be the reprsentative.I made the biggest mistake during all the interview at this time:I didn't scramble for the position ascribed to my diffidentness even though no one was interested with this position,or all of us were shy to "steal" this fat task.The boy from QsyingHua obtained the job at eventually.It was said that the champion would be chosen from the two representatives of two teams.14 options were not significant at all,except for the compromise,leadership as well as positive attitude.There was no denying that I lost the positive trend by myself.
To calculate all the procedures,there was no step my performance can be appreciated,even some steps makde me embarrasedand lacated in the marginal position.Albeit the 3rd step was so-so,but it didn't convincing enough since I was no the champion either.All the candidates rushed to the icecream and candy for free before we walked out of the building,I was in deep slience standing at the corner.
Scores of people mentioned the result.I didn't cover up my loss,sincerely said I didn't win honour for BISU.Surely I believed everyone known by me couldn't win in this firece environment,also started to suspect whether Henry Zhong's glory of passing the interview was true or not.
I had to say that English interview was unfair to me since my literary talent could not be demonstrated at all and the speed of thinking in English was another demerit for me which enforced me to be busy defending.There were no step which I could take advantages of,such as creativity,literary ability,knowledgable view,etc.However,the experience also gave me an impressive lesson rather than any interviews before.It's the first time to see so many top talents among the people of the same age,enforcing me to be moderate among them;Experienced the global company's skillful and matural HR management and process,Severe but also humanitive;compared with David Liu's little company,insisted the faith that I will be the employee of a multi-national company but not the individual workshop;communication in English with high strenth emphsized the significance of being in the English-speaking environment;the intense sence of frustration cautions me not only I have a distant road to endeavor for,but also the approaches I should carry out.These will play a vital role during the preparation before overseas study and influence the way of abroad strive.
I believe I will be the top one so long as I enhance the oral English as well as speed of thinking in English.
Nov.22nd
Didn't perk up from the frustration the day before.Rachel asked me to give suggestion of her new opportunity.I was a little bit absent-mindedness,even though my eloquence and stable evidences had no flaw by a fraction.I was dampened in clouds,while I made it far to seek.
Went for the rcruitment of Reuters Technology ltd.All the presentation was in English too and the accent was terrible enough that I even considered the spokesman learnt English from a peasant.
planed to borrow books next day.Stirred myself up.
Nov.23rd
I was striken by the books on finance once again.The major was too abstruse to dedicate into.Took a view of "International Finance"version for postgraduate,didn't understand the formula at all.I was subject to consider my future more carefully.
Paid for the exam fee of TEM8.I will be exausted in the following months.
Forgotten one thing:today is Thanksgiven Festival.Bless everyone who read my witness,as well as myself.Amen.
Nov.24th
Had lunch with Jacob and Tracy,then went home directly.
Called Angela after right arriving.She seemed recovering well and would go back for campus next Tuesday.Told her the procedure of interview.She admonished me that I was the person who need admiration,if not,according to her understanding of me,I will turn my back upon him too.Therefore,we'd rather sought a company which can provide honour to us.She said that I was in dread since the unknown world waiting made me lose my head,but after I accustom the life in Sydney I can lead it more fluently.Typical Angelaism,But it wasn't nonsense.Hesitation arrested my decition's birth for a long time.
Pleased to hear of he news of Angela's revival.We took thought about her illness,then she has been crazy again.She's back.The chats between us always reminded me the memories with PR tong,as well as the departure as closer as time goes on.Owing to the day before's reminding by articals,I unfolded the files of pictures.Sighed once again.
2.Attention!The date I post my witnesses has been changed on every Friday.
3.A series of exams I am looking forward must be a impassible bear for me.Driving license,TEM8,Computer band 2,and I have to strive for Finance,Mathmatics and English,as well as Essay.Maybe I will meet death before I go aboad.
4.Didn't take any books on philosophy at all this time I was back home.
5.Reviewed the verbose articles again.On Ge,on Licky,on PR tong,on Angela,on Rachel,on myself.Was concsious suddenly that I had left numerous memories which I perishing cherished.The I at that time believed I would not neglect anything no matter when I would be dead.Nevertheless,when I read the articles concerning Licky,I discovered that I had left the story 2 years ago from my history.All the memories will wither away if I didn't write it down.For future,I gave up literture,philosophy as well as almost hobbies,even including the memories.Addictted myself to the trivals in life and deemed highly that I had turned to be aware of life itself,which was more meaningful rather than my useless hobbies.on the basis of Weitgenstein's theory.I dropped my history into the bustbin stylishly,and I scorned myself seriously.Even if glory of dignity was gained,that was only a lonesome crown.No one could rub up the mirror reflecting my pastime.I looked down upon me blinded by gain.
6.Happily at home,laughed loudly,or wept silently alone.Photos.Haven't visit this corner for couples of months.Unfolded the ppt of welcoming the freshmen.I was gratified that the ppt comprised by our glory as well as the sentimental life bridged us.My last dream when I am dying is to view laa of my pictures and proses once again.Surely that's like an excuse more than a dream,since it costs several days to cover all of them,and I would not intend to depart after I covered them.
However,I am obliged to depart for Sydney.Could you Give me something more before my departure?An indelibility one more time at least?
7.Will learn driving next monday.Whoever owe me meal,especially Nancy,since long before,Be quick!!!
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